so a lot has happened since i last posted

so a lot has happened since my last post. The week before the love of my life was moving i get into a car accident at work and severely sprain my wrist with two hairline fractures on it. totaled the work truck. it's in a cast that i have to wear till 6 days before my damn 35th birthday. I have less than 6 months left of school and i am just going to concentrate on that. I've been working really hard on my projects and if i can figure out how to post them on here i'll do it. well one i already know how to do. but the other projects i have to figure out. I haven't been sleeping well since she lef, I try and try but i end up staying awake. I really don't take the meds they give me unless i am in that much pain. i've just been taking the tylenol 3 they prescribed to me. I took 4 in one day and I wasn't feeling any pain lol but i was feeling like i was drunk and i was at work. that was pretty funny to me actually, I went and got me some food to put in my stomach more than i'd just eaten for lunch that day and that seemed to do the trick. it sucks when the one you love is so far away and they text you with they hate the place they are in and they are so unhappy. it makes me sad that she's so unhappy and she hates it there. eh i think thats enough for now i'll post one of my projects i created it in after effects :) it's a 15 second thing with shapes and music but ofcourse i had to add a pic of me and someone :)
I really do miss her and made me feel good that she said she missed me too. I really do love her and hope she comes back...

This school quarter

So this school quarter is going to be rather entertaining and fun, i just have to keep my mind occupied so I wont be distracted by the fact that the one I love is moving away. I am rather sad at the moment about it, it's actually giving me a high five in the face i've got less than two weeks left with her then I wont see her till maybe my birthday or christmas if even then. I hope I hold up, I know I can be strong and things will work out the way they are supposed to. I just don't know what to do or say at the moment. If i could change it I would but I know I can't and I will not be the one to stop her from her dreams, it's about sacrifice for the ones you love right? I just hope she fulfills her destiny and becomes that platform artist like she wants and she does fly me out there to see her and to stay...

she means the world to me...

this is what i am going to miss when she moves next month :(

today

today wasn't that bad of a day really. work sorta flew by then it slowed down and I got bored real bored. Thankfully I went in early as requested and got off early. I get home settle in a lil then I go and work on my truck, I had a blown head gasket. I fixed it I am proud of myself. now i've just got to drain the radiator again put the thermostat back in and then do a motor flush. all bruised and batter and ready for my truck to be running right again. I might trade it in after i fix it all. i still need to replace the valve cover gasket and the clutch bearing for the ac then it will be a good lil truck again. I am in a rather good mood my vibes are high and I hope they stay that way for a very long time. I hope I also get a internship soon with what I am going to school for, or a better graphic design job then i've had in the past. any who thats my day tomorrow i get to bring my baby to work with me she likes it when she comes to work with me :)

I really miss her :(

finals

So, i've been a lil busy lately. I've made 1 A a B+ and a C+ for my grades now the B+ might change to an A. anyways i am not stressed anymore because of it, I am not even stressed at work. I have a week break and I am going to relax somewhat. I have to fix my truck blown head gasket :/ boo. that's not going to be fun for me. I have free time minus work but i don't know what to do with it. I am so used to having something to do like homework, I am getting bored. I mean sure i play with my puppy throw the ball play catch go for a walk. I think i've become way too lonely :( I know it's something I need so I can concentrate on school work but I miss having someone to come home to, I miss laughing and joking around with her, I miss holding her in my arms. She came and stayed over the other day, it felt great to cook her dinner and drink and watch movies and for her to fall asleep in my arms I literally passed out we were both talking and we both passed out. I really do miss her and I do love her. But you've got to make sacrifices to make some of your dreams to become a reality. I know if we were meant to be she'll come back to me like she does.

Homework

Honestly for the life of me I can not concentrate on my homework tomorrow is my final and I am not even finished with my career development binder. I have a majority of it done. It really is a lot of work, it's a lot of bullshit work but it's helpful. I guess I have a lot on my mind right now that's kind of altering my thoughts and letting me focus. I think a lot of it has to do with work, it's really not a healthy environment for me to be working in. I think that is really the majority of it. I've been putting up with it for about a year now. He thinks he's done nothing wrong says he's let me get away with a lot of things lets me do my thing and then he says he feels like he gets slapped in the face when he does. So I told him half the stuff is me reacting to what I heard you'd said and so forth. that I give you problems, I don't do my work, I am not a good worker. When have I ever lied to you, i've been nothing but honest with you. I do what i have to do and then go home. I dont have time for lies or games i am frankly too old for it and I dont need that in my life. You're 31 and i am 35. You need to grow up. my life doesn't revolve around Advance Auto parts, i have school and a life. I have a career i am trying to put forth. You stress me out with the bullshit that goes on around here. it's too much. i have enough on my plate with my family alone, i don't need you to add to it with the work place. Every day I try to leave my problems at the door but you dont seem to let that happen you do one thing one thing and I snap and i am in a bad mood for the rest of the day. Karma is a bitch and she's gonna rape your ass like the lil biaaaaatch you are

SO Today

has been one hell of a day, i knew it was going to be one of those days. Miscommunications between management and employee. He thinks he can bullshit me I am not stupid and im not some kid. I believe that he needs me there and he thinks i am a great worker when "I" do actually work in his words. I work all the time, i am not some lazy kid. I am counting down the days where I don't have to look at this shit job anymore and sling auto parts wasting my time and my talent. I am striving for a better day, I am not a quitter and I never will be, I don't give up. Ha he almost fired me, i could have gotten him with so much shit. he is such a shit head. I can't post this on face book because there are people on there that will say something to him. I don't need anymore drama in my life.


just blah no on to homework thats due tomorrow

ugh

I feel like i've gotten run over by a semi truck! Dr gave me cough medicine and I am not even coughing just need to get the phlem out. well now my neck is finally hurting from the fall and my shoulders. I am glad I get to stay home today from work, but I am going to dread it tomorrow. Ive got a cold compress on my neck. and I am probably gonna go lay back down for a lil bit.I'll be adding something up here later for you redda :) or maybe now while I am still up





lol i was plastered out of my mind but i figured you'd enjoy it.
the hottie amy asked me to get up there and sing with her cause she'd been begging me for a while to. I'd tell her all the time i am not drunk enough so she took advantage of that one it was my friend lehra's bday the bassist they got me plastered some lady kept buying me beers they were getting me shots. you can only really hear me a couple of times singing because amy has a powerful voice but hey atleast i did it :P








redda you might enjoy this one too

http://www.reverbnation.com/tigcatalanotto

I created this in photoshop last year for a friend she's one of my best friends
she's my cuddle monster and I call her rawr

so it's been a while i'll share a funny

so a few days ago i was taking my lil one out for her morning walk to let her do her business. a lil boy wanted to pet her but was afraid so i held her in my arms as he went to pet her she loved the extra attention and was happy as can be. He had to go to the bus cause it was almost there, so i was distracting her i threw a stick and she went after it then turned back around. I did it again she did it again so i said ok fine i started hauling ass she runs after me cause she loves to run well i am hauling ass she decides she wants to run in front of me and in slow motion i am going nooooooo as i flip over and eat pavement. so not cool dolce so not cool she licks me in the face. The lady yells hey are you ok as i am laying there laughing at myself I am fine and she goes back to bringing her kid to the bus stop...